Worst Kept Secret
I've got a secret to tell. Ready to hear it? OK... here it goes. I have a problem with consistency. Yes, me. I know. I know. It blows my mind every day.
I'm great at coming up with great ideas, plans, and things to do with and for myself and my family. I usually do well implementing these ideas at the very beginning. Then somewhere around the 6th to 8th month or maybe a year, I'd get overwhelmed, take a break, and forget to go back to it. Well... maybe not forget, but really take my time getting back to it.
My problem is, I think of all these things I want to do and instead of taking one bite at a time, I'd put the whole scroll in my mouth, and it becomes way too much to chew. One idea will end up taking precedent over another (which easily sounds like prioritizing), but by the end of the month making sure my two todllers are breathing and healthy takes precedent over everything.
I have to remind myself, as well as my children, that Mommy needs to have a life too, and it's okay to do what I want. However, by the time everything gets done (cooking, cleaning, laundry, teaching/entertaining the children) I AM TIRED. Lounging on the couch or lying in bed reading a book, watching television, or simply going to sleep sounds more divine than writing or networking or conducting research. This parenting thing and marriage and personal extracurricular activities are a lot to carry, and sometimes our (moms) wants tend to get placed in the backburner.
So, yes, I struggle with staying consistent with the things that aren't "life or death", but I truly hope to change that. How? By simply sticking to one thing at a time, and not requiring myself to do it EVERY SINGLE DAY.
